[:December 15th, 2021:] • Doing this entry after-the-fact based on notes I wrote down day-of • Lots of difficulty during the class meditation. Highly distracted (Olivia...) and so felt like I wasn't following along so well • At one point Scott asked us to think about (A) something we do which is truly nurturing for ourselves, and (B) an opposite • Putting thought into choices; feeds into essence choices • Unable to really come up with anything good • Almost felt a sense of neutrality, in mind and body, towards everything. I could recognize things as "good" or "bad" but was missing a more visceral sense of it • Intention for the class: • Discover the detached, independent, internal, and innate thread of love and completeness that exists already within myself • Use this independence to go forth into the world and be myself unabashedly and in the best way • In a word/phrase: independence • Homework: I'm not completely set on this word; Scott suggested I try to find another one • Perhaps something like fully alive, which was a word of someone else • Also related: someone mentioned that living like Christ/Mohammed is our divine birthright • During the class, Scott had everybody together turn their attention on a particular person for a moment, not saying anything but sitting and sending love; on my turn I was far more affected than I think I expected, and the roots of tears were forming • Since we have all just barely met each other, this practice of sending love is a practice of unconditional love • Homework: essence choices • Homework: meditations, plant connection